hilang sejuta rasa...
tatkala rasa teruja...
mendiam seribu bahasa...
she stared hopelessly. that little thing was glued to her place. unmoved. she touched softly with her hand, expecting her to pop out her eyes and give her a beautiful smile. yes, she hoped that but the little remained still. she sighed. a red, sticky fluid was felt under her. flowing continuously. she wiped.
and she couldnt longer bear the tears. she finally cried~
by ahsi~ =)
sebenarnya, seminggu selepas tarikh post tu, atau lebih tepat lagi tarikh lahir The Kids, Ray hilang. tanpa jejak. saya betul-betul bingung dan tak pasti macam mana Ray boleh hilang. sepanjang hidup saya bersama Ray, dia tak pernah menjejakkan kaki ke luar rumah. never.
Ray berperibadi penakut. kalau kami terima tetamu, pasti dia hilang bersembunyi di mana-mana. kalau tetamu yang ingin berjumpa Ray, kamilah yang kena bersusah payah mencekup si gemuk ni. tapi Ray kalau dengan kami, manja je. cuma dia tidak se'sosial' Ro. tidak semesra Ro dengan orang yang dia tak kenal.
kami cari juga Ray dalam sibuk persiapan menghadapi final exams tapi tak berhasil. Ray seolah-olah 'hilang' begitu sahaja. sayu dalam redha, kami pasrah. she must have been somewhere better than here. she must have gone for good. semoga Allah jaga Ray~
Eric dan Erin. saya terima khabar gembira. mereka sihat di bawah jagaan tuan baru mereka. saya sendiri terjerit kecil melihat gambar terbaru mereka selepas hampir setahun terpisah. mereka sudah besar panjang dan mempunyai anak sendiri~! ^^
lama betul saya tak update mengenai mereka. saya diceritakan, Erin selamat melahirkan 4 ekor anak juga pada 17 mac 2011. papa mereka si Eric. tak payah la timbulkan isu sumbang mahram di sini. kihkih~ =p
what excites me, anak-anak mereka semua ikut warna mereka. well, of course it's supposed to be like that. tapi kelakarlah. saya rasa gene Ro sangat kuat kot~ ^^
but among those 4, only 1 survives. named Tomi. =.=! mujurlah Eric Erin bukan milik saya lagi. kalau tak, nak juga saya ubah nama 'cicit' sulung saya tu.bagi la nama yang ada huruf R~!
Tomi jantan. sihat dan smart. macam papa dia. bulunya banyak warna putih dan ekor dia semua warna oren. first time tengok, lawak gila rasa. but then tiba-tiba saya rasa rindu. i wish i could hug them. all of them.
the other kids, saya tak tertanya pula apa sebab mereka meninggal. entah. saya harapkan Eric, Erin dan Tomi sihat-sihat sahaja. di bawah jagaan tuan baru mereka. saya yakin mereka dijaga dengan baik, insyaAllah~
Ara, well. she was the long lost child. i know nothing about her except i know, He take good care of her~
ni post tertangguh. apa-apa pun, Eric, Erin, Ray dan Ara, happy belated birthday. even this means i lost you guys, all of you would always be my most memorable memory. always and forever in my heart~
and all praises be to Allah, the day i accepted Ray's loss, i was given an extremely good news. He took Ray, but He gave me little Rays. and yes, Ro's pregnant~ ^^
cuma yang menyedihkan, perut Ro membesar tanpa saya di sisi. Ro and her 2nd generation kids terpaksa melalui hari-hari sukar tanpa saya di sisi. atau sebenarnya saya yang terpaksa melalui hari-hari sukar tanpa Ro di sisi. and yes, it hurts.
it hurts to watch her from far. it hurts to just stare at her pictures. it hurts not to hug her when i need it. or when she needs it. it hurts when we miss each other. it hurts when she tried looking for me and i was worried to death losing her for one week. and at that time, i could do nothing. except cry and pray.
and the most. it hurts when she delivered her baby without me by her side. she bore the pain herself. the pain of giving birth. and the pain of losing them.
and me myself. i bore the pain of watching her from a distance. i couldnt hug. couldnt kiss. couldnt calm her down when she lost the only one that she could give birth while the others shed into red liquid in her uterus. the only i could do was to whisper from this distance,
"Ro, you lose them. but you always have me by your side. always~"
she stared hopelessly. that little thing was glued to her place. unmoved. she touched softly with her hand, expecting her to pop out her eyes and give her a beautiful smile. yes, she hoped that but she remained still. she sighed. a red, sticky fluid was felt under her. flowing continuously. she wiped.
and she couldnt longer bear the tears. she finally cried~
hilang pada jarak...
tatkala rasa teruja...
mendiam seribu bahasa...
she stared hopelessly. that little thing was glued to her place. unmoved. she touched softly with her hand, expecting her to pop out her eyes and give her a beautiful smile. yes, she hoped that but the little remained still. she sighed. a red, sticky fluid was felt under her. flowing continuously. she wiped.
and she couldnt longer bear the tears. she finally cried~
*****
ingat tak ada satu post bertarikh 18 mei 2011 yang tak lengkap, saya janji nak update betul-betul tapi sampai sekarang post tu tergendala. well then. i guess this one should be the post. as promised. as requested sebenarnya, seminggu selepas tarikh post tu, atau lebih tepat lagi tarikh lahir The Kids, Ray hilang. tanpa jejak. saya betul-betul bingung dan tak pasti macam mana Ray boleh hilang. sepanjang hidup saya bersama Ray, dia tak pernah menjejakkan kaki ke luar rumah. never.
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| last picture taken before she lost~ |
kami cari juga Ray dalam sibuk persiapan menghadapi final exams tapi tak berhasil. Ray seolah-olah 'hilang' begitu sahaja. sayu dalam redha, kami pasrah. she must have been somewhere better than here. she must have gone for good. semoga Allah jaga Ray~
Eric dan Erin. saya terima khabar gembira. mereka sihat di bawah jagaan tuan baru mereka. saya sendiri terjerit kecil melihat gambar terbaru mereka selepas hampir setahun terpisah. mereka sudah besar panjang dan mempunyai anak sendiri~! ^^
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| erin, the princess~ |
lama betul saya tak update mengenai mereka. saya diceritakan, Erin selamat melahirkan 4 ekor anak juga pada 17 mac 2011. papa mereka si Eric. tak payah la timbulkan isu sumbang mahram di sini. kihkih~ =p
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| eric~ waaa..hensem gile~! ^^ |
what excites me, anak-anak mereka semua ikut warna mereka. well, of course it's supposed to be like that. tapi kelakarlah. saya rasa gene Ro sangat kuat kot~ ^^
but among those 4, only 1 survives. named Tomi. =.=! mujurlah Eric Erin bukan milik saya lagi. kalau tak, nak juga saya ubah nama 'cicit' sulung saya tu.
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| cicit pertama~ hohoo~^^ |
Tomi jantan. sihat dan smart. macam papa dia. bulunya banyak warna putih dan ekor dia semua warna oren. first time tengok, lawak gila rasa. but then tiba-tiba saya rasa rindu. i wish i could hug them. all of them.
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| alahai laaa~ ^^ |
the other kids, saya tak tertanya pula apa sebab mereka meninggal. entah. saya harapkan Eric, Erin dan Tomi sihat-sihat sahaja. di bawah jagaan tuan baru mereka. saya yakin mereka dijaga dengan baik, insyaAllah~
Ara, well. she was the long lost child. i know nothing about her except i know, He take good care of her~
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| the long lost ara~ |
and all praises be to Allah, the day i accepted Ray's loss, i was given an extremely good news. He took Ray, but He gave me little Rays. and yes, Ro's pregnant~ ^^
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| few days of pregnancy, i guess~ ^^ |
it hurts to watch her from far. it hurts to just stare at her pictures. it hurts not to hug her when i need it. or when she needs it. it hurts when we miss each other. it hurts when she tried looking for me and i was worried to death losing her for one week. and at that time, i could do nothing. except cry and pray.
and the most. it hurts when she delivered her baby without me by her side. she bore the pain herself. the pain of giving birth. and the pain of losing them.
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| the only ro's 2nd generation, Riya~ |
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| Riya. Date of Birth: 13 july 2011 Rest in Peace: 13 july 2011 |
"Ro, you lose them. but you always have me by your side. always~"
*****
and she couldnt longer bear the tears. she finally cried~
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| ni gambar kedua saya tengok mata Ro berkaca. the first one semasa Ro ditinggalkan di kedai pet. and yes, it was a mistake~ |
hilang pada jarak...
terpisah sementara...
terus diduga...
