why

 why darling,

i don't live at all,

when i'm not with you.

11.11 LOL

ah hello.

tiba-tiba rindu  nak menulis. bukak blog, last post 11.11

dan hari ni masih 11.11

adakah masa yang tidak bergerak

atau kah aku yang masih di tempat sama

dalam tahun yang berbeza?

11.11

 bukan shoppee 11.11

just a start 

to (hopefully) new writings.

after exactly three years!

semoga bahagia, kawan

dan semestinya, Dia telah menulis takdirmu (takdirku) dengan seribu hikmah. aku cuma hanya perlu (terus) percaya.

single mothers

in o&g department, you encounter this more often. previously when i was in paeds, it's heartbroken when you admitted babies of UM. every single day, there's would always be at least a case. and the baby would be in scn longer than other babies even if she/he was well. because of the JKSP/ JKM issues need to be settled.

in o&g department, i actually encountered this more often. the youngest i encountered was a 15yo girl. the oldest was 40++ yo. and for sure she was para ++, not even primid. alleged rape cases, PMC's, UM's. i just cant imagine the fate of babies i conducted. i can only pray that those innocents would grow up just fine, and would be protected by Him.

one day, i heard this song at Pulau Perhentian. i was a fire show and this song attracted me so much. i was not so clear by then, but when i searched the full song, i really fell in love with it. and the thought suddenly came across me.

however, through whatever it was, once you are a mother, you'll always have this kind of feeling. differences. love, for a newborn. for the child you carried for months.

i just hope that Allah will lend you (single mothers) His strength, forgive your sins, accept your repentences and ease you and your child.

*i'm just not sure what i'm writing nonsense but hey, salam ramadhan~